Edith made sandwiches with all the starving children, until she ran out of children

Today a man was found hanging from an overpass by his entrails
they were wrapped around his neck, the scene was actually quite gruesome as it would appear that the whole incident was a suicide.

As of late I've more less been keeping to my regiment of playing music, hanging out with my friends and partying every oppurtunity I get. I'm currently listening to the band Deathmole which is a post-metal doom band. Very ambient, very nice. I've been feeling quite good lately. Not depressed so much anymore, in fact I would say I've even been happy on some days as of late. My band has really taken off. We've been busy recording the songs for our first demo lately. I haven't had much luck in finding a job yet but I'm working on it. I got into school though so that's a huge load off my mind.

Have you ever noticed that the apocalypse is always moving forward? It seems every time we get close to one, someone reads about another one somewhere else.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I want some french toast.

So recently in my life, not much has changed. I still get drunkenly fucked up as I always have, I still do stupid shit without care for the consequence, and I'm still just as immature about things as ever. Though the one thing I do have going for me is my friends. I think if it weren't for the people to get me by I wouldn't "get" anywhere. Now I do try and keep this blog relatively free of my own personal bias' and drama but as happy as I can appear to be most of the time, I usually feel like shit. I have for awhile, it's just the way I am. Recent events such as getting laid off and other shit haven't made life any easier for me, but thankfully I'm a spoiled rich kid who's had the world offered to him on a silver platter. Well I mean, we may not have a lot of money, but as far as family goes I'd say I'm a pretty rich piece of shit. So for that reason I usually feel guilty bitching about my own problems knowing full well that there are other people that have it way worse than me. I still can't shake the feeling that something is missing though. A goal, perhaps, a hobbie? No, I have quite a few of those. A partner in crime? Not bloody likely, there are few people in this world I would say I can actually trust. At this moment in time, I am those few people. My life goal is to be happy. I don't know how I will achieve it but I hope that before I end this life that I may obtain some semblance of happiness. I know I haven't been happy in a long time, and I can still remember the very last time I was ever truly happy. Blah blah angst and malice, I could go on and on about how shitty I feel all the time, about the anger I feel when I look upon failure. I would rather keep it brief though. In short, in the end I know I can be responsible for my own well being, the second I ever relied on someone else to make me feel good about myself was merely the beginning of the end. I love myself and that's good enough for me. We'll see where the rest of my life goes from here but being myself is the best thing that ever happened to me, and yet I'm still angry. Brace yourself kiddies, the binary solo will likely blow your mind like a rusted pipe to the back of the skull. Brain matter flying everywhere as the plasma pours into the streets only to be washed away by the never ending rain.

an alcoholic update!

just bought 2 26's of JD
got one for you and another one for me
throw away the cap, you won't need it in the end
grab the bottle break the seal Cheers to you my friend

Have you met my friend Jack!

Jack
always keeps me warm
Jack always keep me from harm
Jack is a gentleman
Except when I want to fight!

So if I'm out watch your back
if I'm with Jack I might attack
Until I put the bottle down
I'm wearin that self rightchous crown

Wasted not
Wanted not
a bottle of jack is all I got

forget life or liberty
pass me a bottle of JD
the soothing burn of tennessee's best
enjoyed down south and in the west

old number 7
goin down to the 711
got me some junk and hooked a bag of speed
threw it at a junkie because I got JD

Wasted not
Wanted not
A bottle of jack is all I got

sobriety kills

Mark of the Beast

The slow beast creeps again, stalking in the darkness waiting to be free, the fire burns and purifies the mind of it's guilt, it burns but the burning feels so good, it heals but only for a short while, the scars remain and the wound never heals, it leaves a mark as a reminder of the things that occurred that night. Never forget the sound of pierced flesh and crushed dreams, forever reminded of failure. Mouth sewn shut and forever I am silenced by my pride. The liquid courage I guzzle to maintain sustains me, the beast is something I must tame, to keep under control, I've seen it get the best of men, I must be vigilant.

Autopia Planes, Trains, Automobiles and the Future of Transportation 747 Flies With A Big Hole In Its Fuselage… For Science

The light is on, but yet the room feels dark. I can't help but feel that the lights in my room are only functioning at a limited capacity. I can relate, my diminished thoughts hold me back from achieving what I feel to be a full potential only experienced in dreams and rare moments of brief understanding. God dammit, I need a fucking beer.

Korean ribs are the best thing in the world

So I'm sitting here in the Asian's basement and Dishes just stopped puking, he started before anyone even got here. So far the night has been half decent. We've basically just been sitting in the basement drinkin beers and playin videya games. Dishes is with Jackie doing a mcdonalds run for us, gettin some douba cheezeburgahs up in heeya! In recent times I've been laid off so I don't have the same financial stability to be gettin wasted all the time, instead I've been pacing myself and takin 'er easy. And then my woman decided that it wasn't working, so you know, woohoo right? Ya no, been pretty miserable lately, it pretty much sucks.
Luckily I've had my friends to get me by thankfully. Was looking forward to playing drunk TF2 but now it seems the internet isn't strong enough to support a decent ping. In similar news, started playing DnD again. We're currently playing an ADnD/warhammer 40k hybrid, where the DM has combined the ADnD gameplay with the 40k universe and lore. It's pretty interesting, I'm playing an Ork Psykker who is basically a wizard who blows shit up with his mind. It's going pretty well, we usually meet on sundays and play at night. I've been getting really into the character and the game is just as fun as I remember it. In conclusion, world war 3 was caused by too many people consuming too much shit. We'll all die sooner or later, might as well enjoy life while we're still here, Stay thirsty mon amis!

Birdfeeders Found to Cause Evolution of New Species

Now I don't normally do this, but my buddy Jordo just finished the EP for his independent project which he does everything for, this guy is fuckin impressive I shit you not, but I got the link to rapidshare or Last.fm you can check out the whole album for free in typical DIY fashion:

Oak and Ecstasy EP - "13 Hits of E" is now complete, and up for download on Rapidshare and Last FM. Meet grind/ambient psychosis! || Rapidshare - http://rapidshare.com/files/316402270/13_Hits_of_E.rar || Last Fm - http://www.last.fm/music/Oak+and+Ecstasy/13+Hits+of+E ||

For any fans of traditional grindcore meeting a more melodic influence give it a listen and support independent music.

On other notes, tonight I am attending an ugly sweater party at the local Fhouse, some good times shall be had, I'll probably be updating this thing tonight with some more intense details.
SHRED OR DIEE!!